Life in the past year

I cannot believe that it has been a year since I moved back home! This last year has been full of ups and downs, laughter and cries, and good times and bad times. I never would have thought that I would go through the things in life that I have... especially all at once. I would have to say that I definately have had more than my fair share of hurt and pain these last couple years. But for some reason someone out there thinks that I need to feel more, and it just keeps adding on. I forgot how difficult dating is. When I got my annulment from Danny it felt like I was starting all over with dating and I was back at 16 again. I know there is someone out there that will treat me like I should be treated, and will love me with no reserve.... But I didn't realize how hard it would be to find that guy! Just when you think you have found a guy who is really sweet to you, treats you really good, and actually cares for you, then they turn around and kick you in the butt and you find out they are just playing those stupid dating games that everyone hates, the kind that makes your heartbreak and makes you feel like you just want to cry. Then all of a sudden your thoughts turn to your ex and the things he did and the way he made you feel, then your emotions just get worse. Why is it that just when you think you are getting over the situation it comes back and just tears you down all over again?? When does the pain ever fully go away?? Well it definately wont go away till after I find the right guy and can be done with dating and the stupid games guys play. Some how I just seem to be drawn to those guys that put up a front and make you feel special when all they are really doing is playing you. Something has to change!!!! This last one was a hard one... but I finally stood up for myself and told him that I was done with his games and told him that if it was gonna be the way it was then it would never work out. As bad as it hurt me too... I just had to do it. I cannot settle and let myself think that this is the best that I can find, and let myself get walked all over on. I will NOT go through that again!!!
On a happier note though... I know the things I am going through are happening for a reason... I know that these trials in life will make me a better and stronger person. I love my family and friends!!! They have been my biggest support and have helped me get through so much!!! I couldn't do this without them!! Especially my family and especially my mom!! Words cannot express my gratitude for her!! My little brother Brayden has been a big help too! I love him so much and miss him tons!! He is becoming such a great missionary! He was just made District Leader of his District at the MTC!! He leaves for Germany November 23rd! He is such a great example to me! Ich Liebe Dich Brayden!!!

Brayden's Farewell

So umm.......... Brayden's farewell is this Sunday.....and I am going crazy! I can't believe how fast time has flown by... I am so not ready for him to leave yet... I don't know what I am gonna do without him for 2 years.... Seriously! I feel so lost just thinking about it! I love my little brother so much..... I have grown so close to him in the last couple years... He is my best friend! I am so proud of him for making the choice to go on a mission! I love you Brayden!

I Love My Singles Branch!!

OK so I just have to say how much I love my singles branch!

For starters my Branch President is awesome! He is so supportive and always there for me! This last Sunday he came up to me and asked if he could meet with me after church... uh oh was my first thought... I knew right away he was going to give me a calling.... I had gotten away with not having one since the middle of march when I came back to the branch (I went to this one before I got married) and now he is finally giving me one.....

So after church I go to his office and he gives me not only one calling but two!! Gees! So he called me to be a relief society instructor and a branch missionary..... OK so that isn't the why he is so supportive.... But I am excited about my callings, I was a relief society instructor before I left the branch.....

The next thing was he asked was "how are you doing?".... When he asked this he meant emotionally with my annulment....I told him I am doing great!.... Then he told me "I can see that! I have seen a Glow about you again! Your back to the Ashley that I knew before!"(happy and bubbly)...... Well that made me so happy! I am glad that people can see that I am happy again!

I gave up a lot of the things that I enjoyed when I got married because Danny did not like the same things that I did, so I gave them up and learned to like the same things he did... not that I didn't like the same things but I got to gain new hobbies and things that I like to do now! But I put all of the things I liked to do in a closet and locked them up because he would never do them with me.... But now that I am back I can enjoy the things that I loved to do before.... And thanks to my Singles Branch, they have helped me to find those things again! They are a big reason why I have been able to get through the healing process like I have! Even though I still have my hard days, I always know that I have my friends from the Branch there for me, not judging me and helping me keep my head high! We do so many fun things together! I am so Excited for our trip to Jackson Hole this weekend!!

Yahoo!!! I got it!!!

I got the Job at the call center for America First!! I am so excited! I start the week of the 24th of August!!! Yay! This is going to be such a great change for me!!!

I need your opinion!!!

Ok so my sister brought something to my attention yesterday... I don't know what to do..... She told me I should try meeting someone on LDS singles.com that way I can find someone that is more fit for me.... well It has crossed my thoughts every now and then but never really wanted to do it.... Is it weird???? or should I try it??? I have heard a lot of good things about it but I have never wanted to meet my husband or whoever online... What are your thoughts?????

I Love Volleyball!!!

A couple months ago me and some friends started playing volleyball on monday nights! It has been so much fun! And in a way kinda relaxing for me! It has been so nice to get out and just hangout with friends and meet new people! I think it has been a big part of my healing process. I am so much happier now!! I love it!!! I can't wait to play again tonight!!!

Munich, Germany!!!

My little brother Brayden is going to Munich, Germany/Austria on his mission!! He leaves September 23, 2009!! I am totally saving my money to go pick him up!! It is beautiful!!!

Brayden got his Mission Call today!!!!!

WooHoo!! Brayden got his mission call today! We are so excited!!! I can't wait to get home from work so I can watch him open it!!! We are having a big BBQ/Party with family and his friends tonight!!! I think I am as excited as he is to find out where he is going!!! I am having a hard time concentrating at work!!!

My little brother is getting so big!!!

My baby brother is not such a baby anymore :'( Yesterday He was ordained an elder! Holy crap! Time has gone by so fast!! Well to catch up since I haven't posted for a while, Brayden graduated from high school on May 28th. Since then he has been working hard to get his papers turned in for his mission. Well he turned them in on the 17th of June and we are expecting his call next Wednesday! Can you believe that? I am so proud of Him!! He is such a great example to everyone! I am gonna miss him so much!! The two of us hardly ever got along with each other before but now we are closer than ever! We have been hanging out a lot lately!!! I love it when he comes with me to some of the singles ward activities! And when we play volleyball with my friends! Brayden you are the greatest brother a sister could ask for!!! I love you so much!!! I am proud of all the amazing choices you have made in your life!!! I already can't wait till you get home from your mission!!!


Leave a comment if you want to guess where he is going!!! I will post when I find out where he is going!!!

This kinda sucks!

Well I won't be trying out anymore to sing the national anthem at dodger stadium for mormon night. I won't have enough leave to go with the other time i need off for other trips this summer. So I am kinda sad... but it will be fun going on trips with the singles branch! We have a fun trip planned in august to go river rafting! yay!

Wish me Luck!!!!

Ok so last night I was on the internet and I was looking for books for me to read at deseret book and saw that they are holding auditions to sing the national anthem at dodger stadium for "Mormon Night" on August 6th!!! I have always wanted to sing the national anthem at a Major League Baseball game!!! So guess what I am trying out!!! I am so excited!!! It would be so much fun to sing it for "Mormon Night!" especially when they are playing my favorite team that night!!! Go Braves!!! Wahoo!!! So wish me luck and pray for me that I will do well!

Kidney Stones Suck!!!

I hate having kidney stones! They are so painful... I wish they would just go away! I wish I was at home sleeping like I have been the last 2 days instead of being at work!!

I have the bestest friends ever!!!!!

So I just have to tell everyone that I have the bestest friends in the whole world!!!!

Saturday Libby, Cash, and Chanse took me out for my birthday to PF Changs in salt lake! Oh my gosh it was so good! While there they gave me their present and I was seriously almost in tears when i opened it! Lately I have been kinda bummed about my new scriptures I got a little over a year ago. For christmas me and my ex-hubby danny gave each other new scriptures for christmas because they finally came back out with the snap button ones again and I didn't have scriptures with my married name on them so we had that done on my scriptures. Well little did I know that i was gonna get divorced 10 months later. I hated the thought of spending more money on something that i already had that is still brand new!!!!! Well my friends bought me the sameones and put my maiden name on it!!! I am so excited!!!! I used them for the first time yesterday at church! I noticed in sacrament meeting as i was sitting there reading them that they each wrote there own little message in them to me! I had a hard time trying to hide the tears as i read them!

After i opened the best present ever!!! We ate and took lots of fun pictures! When it came time to pay they wouldn't let me help pay for dinner... then chanse took the check and he paid for all of us! Holy crap! That was so sweet of him! If you have ever been to PF Changs you can imagine what the bill would be like for 4 of us! Then we went to the drive in and saw like the last 10 minutes of Star Trek and then saw Monsters vs. Aliens. Funny Movie! They would barely even let me pay for my own Popcorn!

I had a blast with them!!! It was the most fun I have had in such a long time!!! This my fellow bloggers is why I have the Bestest Friends in the whole world! Thank you so so so much Cashena, Libby, and Chance!!!! You guys are the GREATEST!!!!!

Taylor swift concert!!

I am getting really excited for the Taylor swift concert!! I can't wait!

Happy 60th Birthday Dad!!!!!

Yesterday was my dad's 60th Birthday!!! Wow! We went yesterday into his work and surprised him with balloons that said happy 60th!! But someone beat us to it! My brother had put up "look who's turning 60"signs with his picture on it, on the sliding doors as you enter into kents market and all over the wall outside of the pharmacy!! It was awesome!! Happy Birthday Dad!!! I love you!!!

May is such a busy month for our Family! First is was my birthday on the 10th plus mothers day that same day, then it was my dad's birthday on the 13th(yesterday), then my nephews birthday on the 15th, my little brother Braydens seminary graduation on the 17th and high school graduation on the 28th which is also my sister-in-law Brooke's Birthday!!! Wow!!! What a crazy month!!! But hey I get to spend lots of time with the best family I could ever ask for!!!! I couldn't ask for more!!!